How much i love you

I'm slowly dieing
I'm fading away....
I wish i had had the courage
to ask you to stay....

You gave me the chance
But i lied and said no
I didn't know what i was saying
I didn't want you to go....

How could i have been so stupid?
So blind...and not see
how perfect we are together
how we were meant to be....

What was i thinking?
I love you with my whole heart
and know I'm slowly dieing...
and falling apart...

I cant take back my answer
you wont believe its true...
i should have said "YES"
when u asked if i loved you too...

I'll prove to you my love
I've planned it out my best...
I'll soon put my broken heart
out of its misery and to rest...

I'm laying on my bed..
the blades against my wrist
my veins slowly start to appear
as i make a tight fist...

I run the blade over my skin
striking the veins i want
my answer replays in my mind
and my words seem to taunt...

As the blood trickles down
onto my satin white sheets
i feel my weak body go numb
straight down to my feet...

I'm taking my lasts breaths
I'll soon be letting go
but before i leave
I'll write this note so you will know...

" Baby...
I was stupid
my feelings i can no longer hide
i cant keep them locked up
and shut deep inside...

My words cant express
how much you mean to me
I cant live without you
your the other half
that completes me........

I should have said "yes"
but i lied and told you no
and i cant change my answer
so my feelings I'm going to show...

now when you look back
you'll know my love as true
my actions speak louder then my words....
.....this is how much i love you...

By: Lucy Stelmack

******plzz r/c thanx******