Waiting to die

Nobody knows why it appears
Engulfing random peoples bodies
It's not prejudice, religion
Nor race
It bears no mercy
Understand my body is a ticking time bomb
Yet I feel it ticks too slowly
I wiped the tears from my daughters face
Telling her I wish not to leave
Please do not condemn me for my defamation
For it's what they want to hear
My body has become too frail and weak
The Infirmity not only destroying my body
But likewise my soul
For before I never possessed these sinful thoughts
You might think I'm selfish
Maybe so
But when you get to the point like I have
Where everyday life is a constant struggle
Selfishness may be the only persistent emotion
You feel in your withering body
Must I live the rest of my days
Waiting for the inevitable?
You observe me in this hospital bed everyday
Watching me slowly die
Giving no attempt to help my pain
So I ask for one final request
Pull the plug and let me die
So I can feel peace once again