Letting Go

I find myself crying out at night
Im looking for a soul mate
Someone there to tell me
That im really all right

I found myself fighting back the pain
I found myself choking it down
You caused a hurt
That i cannot restrain

I see myself promising no more
I see a begging fool
Sitting all alone
On his bedroom floor

Do you know why it hurts
Causing constant pain
To listen to your tears
Realizing im in love again

Ive held you close many a times
Comforted you late at night
Stuck up for your ideals
Even if your not right

Ive stuck with you
Thick and thin
But all you look for
Is other men

My heart aches and burns
Still you dont realize im there
Even though my lifes stopped
The world still turns

How can you tell me its not fair
That he looked elsewhere
How can you complain
When its my love you disdain?

These are things i must let go
If you really need to know
Ive bit the dust, one last time
Until the day shell become mine.