A Child

Mom , my supporter . The one who always stands by me , encourages me , now has doubts about me and disbelieves in me .
Mom , my protector . The one who loves me no matter what , watches over me , now has left me behind , alone in the dark .
Mom , my hero . The one who teaches me to be strong , to be proud of myself , now has made me depressed , looks down on me .

You are being quiet , so quiet , too quiet .
I have nothing to say , I have forgotten how to speak .
Mom , can we talk like we used to ?
Can someone , anyone break this silence between us ?

Mom , I am not speaking , I have no one to talk to .
Mom , I am not sleeping , I can not sleep because I am cold , alone in this room .
Mom , I am not crying , at least I will not tear up before you .

You can yell at me , you can hit me but please do not ignore me .
I will do whatever you ask me to , I can give up anything just please do not leave me .
Oh please , please mom , do not do this to me .
At the very least , do not let me see you leave .

An ancient house , paint peeled from the walls , scattered on the floor .
An old closet filled with dust , unopened , clothes that I never wear inside .
On a crowded street , I have no shadow , people would not pay attention to it .
Even the world is not the same , it is changing every moment ,
it will be different in a second .
But mom , I am still here , alone in the room ,
this lonely feeling will never ever go away .

Friends leaving is not sad , falling in love is not sweet ,
sickness is not painful , peacetime is not welfare and war is not worst .
Once you have lost the most important person in your life ,
these mean nothing to you , nothing at all .

Now , I can not see when you run to my bed , the tear on your face .
I can not hear while you cry and call my name .
I can not breathe the air , the sweet smell from your body .
I can not tell you how much I miss you and how happy I am now .

Mom , you finally come back to me before I go back to where I came from.
Sorry mom , I should not leave you while you come back to my own little world .
Mom , you are proud of me , right ? You are happy of your son , right ?
Mom , you should be .
Mom , you taught me to be strong , so please do not cry .
Mom , encourage yourself while I am not around .
I have been doing this because of you , mom . So please do the same for me .
Take care of yourself like you took care of me when I was little .

No matter what you did to me , you are still my mom .
At least , we are finally back together as a family like before .
Mom , I have never told you this , but before I will not be able to tell you ,
I want you to know that I love you so much , so much , much more than myself .
Mom , I Love You .