Jumbled mess of unthought pain

I cant spit out
What i really want to say
My little Button
Please dont go away

I know you can't hear
I'm sure you dont care
Even as i write this
I slip into dispair

I'm going to lose you
Just like the time before
Everything i had to tell
Was filtered and ignored

I tried to say i loved you
Tried to let you know
I wasn't even allowed to say
As much as hello

You ask my advice
Do you think we would last
Well the truth is
I want it over fast

I dont want to watch you
Loving him more
Because you cant see
Its not you he adores

I see him eyeing her
WIth the corner of his eyes
Dont let him decieve you
With his sour lies

Again your alone
Crying on my frame
I look upon you
Just wanting to do the same

I\'ve helped so many people
Held so many hands
Walked them through
Dangerous bitter lands

What about me
Who takes me across
That swinging bridge
When i'm the one lost

Dont mind this jumbled mess
nothing more than confessions
I'll slowly keep my side
And hide my slow recession