Hilary's Last One

What goes on with her life?
why does she damage her skin?
the cuts begin to show.
and i begin to break out in a cry.
she smiles against me.
while we are walking , talking.
we laugh endlessly but...

she's unhappy.
but how?
when did this happen?
don't you see me, I'm right here.
if you need help, talk to me.
i begin to think about it.
over the nights of why.
I've done it but i understand why.
but to you, you have it all.

it's a mistake here and there.
but you did this twice.
after you promise me the first time.
it sucks knowing you broke a promise.
but i don't care at all.
that doesn't mean sh.it.
listen i do love you like a sister.
so stop this bul.l sh.it.

Yes, i wrote you before.
yes, people same person.
but I'm not giving up to easy.
not this time around.
i don't have tears for you.
no i don't.
i have feelings hurt.
yes i do.

so do me a favor.
burn these poems.
even though they make you feel better.
there Bil.l shi.t.
yes i do mean every word from before.
but your not getting it more then you need to.

so do that.
let them burn.
let you understand more.
while your at it unlock your door.
let someone in.
not a best friend either.
i mean a parent.
i want to help you.
I'll tell even.
whatever you want me to.

so I'll sign this a goodbye.
for writing these poems to you.
because i tried.
no, I'm not yelling.
I'm just sick of writing.