Where do i belong?

I lie awake and wonder why.

why am i left alone inside?

i feel that no matter what,

i am doomed to live an abnormal life.

it doesn't matter how many friends i have.

or how my life is at home.

i will always feel inferior to the beauty in life three fold.

forever in someone Else's shadow,

which i would rather be....

but the spotlight shines constantly

and leaves me blinded from thee.

i only wish the life of a simple life.

a life which can not be granted to me.

i might as well embrace my life.... i feel there is more to my destiny.

maybe I'm destined to live in the spotlight that i hate so.

but maybe, just maybe i can live in bitter sorrow.

i grieve for the one my soul belongs too.

because i know i may never see
who it may be,

I'm forever just shy of the spotlight,

but not to far to just slink away from it all.

someone always notices when i;m gone,

but do they notice the pain i feel inside?

of course not. they see the lies

the lies that i put on every day to cover how i truly feel inside.

am i damed to live this life? or is there an escape to the darkness where i belong?