Ryan David Cameron

by ~*Nicki*~   Jan 18, 2006


Sometimes it takes
something bad
just to turn yourself around
just to make you realize

i lost a loved friend
to a shot in the head
which gave me a pop in my head
about what suicide could do

it did not seem
like nothing he would do
but thats what that medicine does
it makes you something you are not

the pain
was all i could feel
the anxiety in my chest
made me turn my lust around

i used to want to kill myself
but all the pain it would cause
just was not a good enough reason
to leave this pain streaking world

now it feels like i am not whole
missing a friend is the worst feeling
especially if you two had more than a friendship
you had love and special times

My Ex-boyfriend/friend shot himself in his head Jan.6th 2006, only 1 month 5 days after his birthday.He was graduating this year and he was doing a lot better in his life but obversely something was bothering him.
I love and miss you Ryan David Cameron Dec.1, 1987- Jan.6, 2006
Rest in Peace

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  • 17 years ago

    by Lauren

    Wow.
    i am so sorry for your loss. i lost a friend to suicide, too. but try to think that he's happier now. that he no longer hurts.
    amazing poem, all together. and thanks for the comment on mine.
    Lauren

  • 17 years ago

    by ABrookeD

    This poem is really touchy. It really shows how much you cared about him. It must be extremely difficult trying to get through the feeling of losing someone you cared so deeply for. God bless you and again, excellent poem.

  • 18 years ago

    by End Of Eternity

    I am really sorry for ur friend and i hope that u dont even look at such sort of temp solution for pain as the stronger person is the one who fights and fights.

    U hv the talent of releasing urself, so hold on to it as mostly people dont even have this way of releasing.

    Stay strong and take care of urself

    very nicely xpressed ur feelings in this one.

  • 18 years ago

    by shobhana kumar

    I am so sorry for your loss, Nichole. Suicide is such a tragic thing - sadly those who vote to take their own lives don't know the pain they leave behind.

    i lost a dear friend to suicide too.

    take care

    love and luck
    shobhana

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