I'm not myself today,
I'm not who you think I am,
I tell the biggest lies
And put on the most colourful mask,
But no one can see through it,
No one can tell how I really feel,
No one knows.
I live my life alone,
In my mind I see only pain
Whilst on the outside I smile and laugh,
Trying to cover the scars,
The aching wounds
That force me to cry every night, alone,
No one knows.
If only someone knew,
I could tell them of my torture,
Of the never-ending torment of my own self,
The constant battle,
The war waging between the voices in my head,
Constantly ending at a stalemate,
No one knows.
I may seem jolly,
I may seem hopeful,
But that's all you will ever see of me,
I will never again utter my pain
And bring down others around me,
I will never live my life in happiness,
Now you know.
