Mental Torture

Walking down the corridor,
My eyes twitching,
Looking at everyone looking at me,
They stare as if they know me,
They know what I've been through,
All the pain and the torture
I am still living every night, every day,
And can never forget it,
This mental torture is killing me
From the inside out.

I sit in my room,
Listening to anything to distract me from reality,
The real world that has decided to shut me out
As I am one of the complicated ones,
The people that apparently leak sadness
And bring everyone else down with them,
Sometimes I wish I could just go away,
Somewhere where all this pain would cease,
This mental torture is killing me
From the inside out.

In the fresh air,
The whispering wind wafting against my face,
The reassuring rasps of the rain
Telling me everything will be alright,
That eventually they'll learn to accept me as me,
Rather than cringing every time my name is mentioned,
I might as well wish for a saviour,
Even though I shall never get one,
This mental torture has destroyed me
From the inside out.