Fading Away

Sleek, like a fountain pen
Thin triangular blade at the tip
Next to the skin on my pawn
A tingle arced across my scalp

Blood, chasing down my skin
Grip my wrist as it burns
It still felt awesome
To feel blood go out in the real world

Straight line of blood bloomed
With a smirk on my face
I wanted to slap my self
I actually thought I stopped

That's what happened
After you walked away
Never saw light again
All I did is cut and pray

You said I was fat
I was only 125
So I decided to take a turn
And make myself starve

So skinny I became
I could barely walk
You walked out the door
Like nothing was your fault

Now I stand in front of the broken mirror
And I don't recognize my own face
Wishing I would change
Wishing I wasn't such a disgrace

I watch my blood slip by
Like I have enough
I watch my life fade
Like I was once tough

So I just pick my knife
And point to my heart
Saying my last words
Wishing I would have been smart from the start