Coffee & Cigarettes

Another day, another chance to change. But I cannot seem to make a change,
Another night spent alone with the dark, but I cannot seem to find the light switch,
Mornings spent with coffee and cigarettes, screaming in silence, no one hears, no one cares,
Anxiety shares my brain, my wings broken under the weight of these regrets,
Shadows on my walls haunt my sleepless nights, dancing in the grim light of the moon,
Mindless days spent wasting away, always more dead than alive, awaiting the darkness,

Stuck in this cycle of death, this never ending spiral down to hell,
Too many hours away from home, too many hours spent at home,
Pain is everywhere, the only feeling I have left, fearing the moment I finally go numb,
Still wishing things would be different, but I cannot change my life, Iâ??m in too deep,
Somewhere tucked away in lifeâ??s dark corners, without a chance to break away, not anymore,
Iâ??ve had enough chances, but never took the risk, trying to play it safe, now a slave to myself.

My life shackled somewhere in my dark past, nothing can break these chains,
My innocence taken away long ago, my soul corrupted even longer ago, bleeding black,
Wishing only that I could leave this all behind, looking for the easy way out,
But that road is never there, not for me, I can only remain here and endure it,
I wish I could see my face the way it was, before this evil reflection appeared in this mirror,
I want to run away, but kept in place by this ever remaining guilt, the memories I canâ??t shake

I retreat to my home, my seclusion, for fear of the darkness I spread around,
Fearing you will fall under the black bleeding from my heart, fear of wasting your innocence,
Another night, another nightmare, awake again, with the shadows closing in,
Too tired to fight, still I keep my guard up, this battered shell of a man consumed by the dark,
Another morning comes, another wasted day ahead, with coffee & cigarettes only awaiting meâ?¦