You Almost Existed

My dear baby in heaven,
I know you're safe-still I worry.
Today you would be the month of seven.
My dear baby-I am sorry.

Mommy just wasn't ready for you.
Not quite yet.
It wasn't a good thing to do.
But I will never forget.

You would've been my first baby,
But I gave you away.
I still think-what if & maybe.
I didn't want you to live in a bad way.

Mommy & Daddy wanted to give you a good life.
But we couldn't offer it to you.
When Daddy makes Mommy his wife
We'll have one-I'm sorry it's not you.

I love you baby-very much.
God's going to take you in his hands.
I'm sorry I'll never feel your touch.
Please baby-try to understand.

*not real for me-just inspired!