Why

The good times are gone the pain has returned what the f@ck is wrong with me now why do i have these thoughts why do i feel like dying why do i hate life so much why do i feel lonely when I\'m surrounded by people why do i feel uncomfortable around family why can\'t i just talk about the way i actually feel instead of pretending to be happy and care free i wish i was happy all the time i try to be but it hurts to smile i can\'t take this anymore even my \"happy\" days make me feel depressed because i know tomorrow i will be back to my depression and instead of trying to help myself i help everyone else with their problems and create more for me for all the people out in the world that feel like me deal with your problems before its to late