The feeling to cut

Oh God i want to cut
I'm about to lose my mind
but where must i do it
so no one else can find
I'm not going back to that stupid place
you can bet your very life
its doesn't make me better
but something does, its my knife
theres no greater feeling
its almost like your high or drunk
you don't really feel anything
all emotions are sunk
it'll last you a few hours
then you'll want to do it more
people tell me thats my problem
but my heart was broken way before
so then you cut again
because the pressure is way to much
the best feeling deep inside
is the knifes first touch
yes Ive cut to deep
I felt that sharp dagger and the pain
all my problems are finally solved
and its not me thats insane