You're Not Really Here

As I look out to forever,
I watch the green grass blow,
In the silent breeze.
I look up at the sky,
And I try to find myself.

But I see something else,
And it's not who I expect,
It's the one who had past,
But he's not really here.

I shake the memories,
I ignore what I saw,
Yet I think about it,
Through the whole day,
About someone,
Who isn't really here.

I was getting used to it,
But I then I saw you again,
And I wasn't alone.
But, that's not true,
You're not really here.

I didn't see you again,
And my body aches that your gone,
My supply fell through,
I had no more to say,
To someone who isn't really here.

You craved my happiness,
I craved your joy,
We smiled together,
And we laughed together,
But now it's not that way,
You're not really here.

We have to say good bye now,
And I know it will be hard,
But you're gone now,
And you have to move on,
I know you can hear me,
But I receive no response,
You're not really here.

As we part in my head,
I watch everything fall apart,
I had to say good bye,
It couldn't be this way,
I couldn't be with my brother,
Who isn't really here...