Why must it be so hard, it was like everything was going to be messed up from the start. It was hard for me to open my eyes and see that this place was not for me. I was new, and had to prove that I was better than some. I lifted weights, I played it straight, but it still went wrong.
Why mus I be so far from the people I love, and the ones who know me. It's was kinda stupid, but I miss the jokes that would end in "HEY WHY DON'T YOU JUST BLOW ME?"
Why must I start over once again, it's something, that seems to happen over and over again. I go to a new school, and am sometimes seen as a fool. I'm loud and proud of where I've been, and there's no way I'll shy away from him. The guy who thinks he's it, or the one who just likes to talk spit!
Why must this be another school, another year, and still the SAME amount of fears! Through these past years I've been to 3 different schools! (Kingsville, Uvalde, John jay)
Why is it that just when I feel comfortable saying HEY! It turns a new day, and I'm in a new place telling people that "I'm not here to stay!"
Why do things change, why can't they just stay the same. Keep the same friends, same sports, same school, and of course me the big, strong, AWESOME FOOL!
Why? A word I often use, but is almost always confused. Confused for talking mess, or people thinking that I want them to get undressed!
I have all the questions, and hopefully, answer these questions and ALL the REST!
For now I will go off to be and ask the question "Why am I alone, with no one to love and hold?"
