Its not something im proud of ....
Its not something im ashamed of either.
Its not something i wanna keep to myself ....
Its not something i can tell people either.
I wanna be able to stop ....
But also i dont.
It makes me feel better ....
It also makes me feel worse.
Its how i deal with things i cant really talk about ....
Its also ruining my body.
I tell my best mate almost everything ....
but some stuff i just wanna keep to myself.
I cant tell my boyfriend ....
Hes been through enough already.
When theres nobody you can talk to ....
You need a release, thats what this is.
When things get too much ....
I always seem to take this road.
Yeah its lonely....
And yeah it hurts.
But it gets me through another day ....
Thats all i really need is to make it through another day!!!!
