My Grandma

Bored
Sitting still in a silent room
nothing has been the same
since the day she died
every day since then
every night Ive cried
I wonder how things would be
if she would be alive
i feel so angry, i feel so lost
I would have done anything
for her to be here
at any cost
but there was nothing i could do
I lost her from cancer
how sad that this is true
ill end my life
rather than go insane
I cant handle this
I have no one here to ease my pain..