Can you see?

I never cried
not even once
but ever night I died
a struggle trying to hide
the pain that was long ago but still lingered inside

I never spoke
not even once
I am normal. Right? I still pretend to have fun and joke
can you see the marks on my neck?
I still feel his lengthy fingers on my throat as I began to choke

I never felt
not even once
no one could see how I did feel
for I choose not to show them
a shitty hand I was delt
I still remeber how quickly he slipped off his belt

I never loved
not even once
for after then I knew that love did not exist.
can you imagin the blood?
as it leaked out of me
my worse pain came from love

I never really existed
my body was there, but my spirit was dead
no one really notice, but now everyone can see
no body, no spirt, no soul
dead in the grave where I should be
I cried out desperatly
no one under stood
now can you all see?