So, I Hear You're Pressing Charges

Bang!! What good is one person alone in the world? Let’s start from the beginning. I knew you’d be hard to forget. It was not love at first sight. It never is. I’m not easy, but I’ll let myself be tricked. I am drawn to the rhythm. I won’t make you. Please tell me I’m not wanted. I won’t listen. We always want what we can’t have. I only have eyes for you. But my vision is clouded. You cloud things. Been holding these feelings inside. Been trying to live, but I’m barely alive. This happens all the time. Restraining order blues. Engaged in separation. Lovers, sacred name profaned by such application. She gave me that look again. That look I get from all your girl-friends. Like power in the Interim. This love is invisible, but verifiable. As God made them, He matched them. I’ve been wanting this for so long. I’m terrified. But I’m pretty sure you’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me..and you didn’t do anything! Your grace cures all disgrace in me. I want the world to know your name. I want the world to know what you mean. to me. I want the world to know…everything! I just know how to be your friend. But, then again, no. We’ll never be friends. We’ll be in love until it kills us both. Or we’ll pretend to be strangers. Maybe “Um, friends,” but we can never “Just friends.” You’ll never know how much I’m missing you, and you’ll never know all the things I’m going through, and you’ll never know how I made it through, because I’m still deep in it! Critics say I am delusional. I know I am delusional. It hurts to call all the memories a “lie.” The last three letters of your name. Cute, but it doesn’t change anything. Come back later when I’m not so confused. I need to sort a few things out. I dare not..hope..you’re interested.