Sorry for wasteing your time

I was sitting at the computer
the day you told me
the gloomy day you told me you cheated

i sit there as tears pour out of my eyes
my thoughts race through my head
i want to be dead
i look around for a knife, an eraser, a lighter...
anything...
anything to ease the pain

sitting in front of me is a knife
i grab it
and start slicing away at my wrists

everything disappears
the blood covers my whole arm
a single drop falls
I'm so concentrated i hear it hit the floor

I'm come out of my world
i smear the blood
and feel the pain
the emotional stress is to much
crying and cutting alone isn't helping
i need to erase you from my life completely
i cant stand seeing your smiling face
as i sit here dying
its like what we had didn't even faze you
but the only way out is death

so i cut one more time
this time much deeper than the rest
i feel dizzy and slowly slip away

now I'm gone
watching over you
and every little thing you do
you said with out me you'd die
but your still alive
after everything
your only regret is wasting your time

::dedicated::