A Father's Love

I've never had a 'Father'
How can you expect me to understand?
I've never had a 'Daddy'
To hold me by the hand.

But you asked me what I'm scared of
Why I hate it when you flirt
Because all I see when I look at you
Is betrayal, pain and hurt

My father left when I was four
Ive no memories of him at home
And I've taken my inspiration
From my mother coping alone

We get the random visits
Christmas and birthdays, that sort
But he can't understand me at all
He thinks that my love can be bought

If you tell him that love is the laughter
And memories of dancing and smiles
He'll just laugh and insult me
Taunt and tease me awhile

When you see someone 5 times a year
Fake smiles and laughter is great
But for every visit of 'happiness'
I remember one of hate

So you don't understand why I run
I bury my feelings and hide
It's 'cause love and all that it means to me
Makes me feel so bitter inside.