You once said to me

Some time not long ago,
You once said to me...
"If things were not the way they are...
If we were together last July,
We may have turned out just the same."

I simply kept my thoughts to myself,
Cause I beg to differ.
Things would have been a lot different,
If we were together last July...

I would have never broke your heart,
I would have never let you cry.
I would have treasured you so,
Till the day you part.
Not because of health or any other cause,
But I will never be able to bare,
The thought of leaving you the sorrows to grief alone.

Life has never been so close to memories before,
Feelings that were burried,
And thoughts that have been forgotten,
Were felt and remembered once more.
Eyes that were dried are now filled with tears,
A heart that was lost is filled with emotions again.

Some time not long ago,
You told me about your thoughts...
"That we may be together one day...
And you really can see it happen,
Some years down the road."

I told you that I'd be really happy,
If that day ever comes.
I promised that if you're not married in two years less a month,
There will be no question about us.

How I wish that things will change,
And let history rewrite the past.
How I wish that time will fly,
And let it fade away all your sorrows in the past.
How I wish the future will offer new hope and fate,
So I pray that we will be together one day.

Some time shortly after,
You wrote to me...
"That you need some time alone,
Not to reply and not to call.
Take care of myself and him for you,
If I treasure this friendship between you and I."

You retreated back,
And shut me out.
My heart sunk like a rock,
Desperate and lost.
Not that I lost faith in your feelings or your thoughts,
But helpless that I cannot be there by your side,
When you needed the comfort and support.

There's nothing I can or should do anymore,
But to pray that you recover soon one day.
Watching the painful seconds past each day,
I can only respect your wish and patiently wait.
All I ever want is the best for you,
With or without me matters no more.
One thing I will say for sure,
Is that not only have my feelings for you never changed,
But it grew a lot stronger with each passing day.

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