Misery + Ecstasy

by Drew Gold   Feb 28, 2006

"my ecstasy is my misery,"

and she swallowed the pill,
counting the minutes that
separated their difference:

misery and ecstasy, walking
hand-in-hand through the rut
in the valley of denial, drowning
so deep in the waves of blurred
stimulation; hopeless, her nerves
rushing past the speed of pain,
only to slide through her fingertips
back onto another pill that,
yet again,

she holds onto like a sleepless lover
in the glow of capsules and a blacklit
agony; her heart beats erratically-
a prisoner waiting to break free
from its cage, and feel life, smoothly
coursing through her veins, yet-

her pulse spikes and eyes roll back
to a place of no thought; no judgment
to measure just what she's living for,
looking for, or why - a fairytale land
of neon greens and electric
a place where she's alone
just enough to be comfortable
in a room full of dead light and
decaying relationships;
she turns her back, knowing
she'll be stabbed, bound, tied and

but this way,
no one will notice her eyes
back, moving
to the violent heartbeat-
stifling her mumbled pleas
of lonely syllables
not a soul will hear -

just bring me back"


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  • 14 years ago

    by Lenny

    This takes a sort of completely different direction from your other works. In most of your poems I notice you sort of begin with one theme or base and then work off to something completely different through a sort of simile build up like when you change one word to another. But here you have kept the same theme consistant the whole way through. A different approach but again damn effective. Its more like a story than a poem, and yet a poem in every sense and a terrific one at that. I dont know, you confuse and intrigue me. Each piece is something new, something equally as radiant.

  • 14 years ago

    by master of shadow

    Great flow and description in this peice.