Im sorry

I am walking
I see the path ahead
surrounded by so many
yet only tears are shed

I feel alone
even when I'm in his arms
he doesn't know
about all the self harm

it starts after school
I take out my old friend
I plead with this piece of metal
to take away the pain again

my eyes fused
upon the slow but steady flow
with each new line
the anger begins to slow

I stay relaxed
in a sedated state of mind
this is so stupid
yet every day to myself I lie

how long will it last
this temporary fix
for so long I've felt pain
there's gotta be more to my life than this

4 small marks
left among all the rest
someday I'll stop
there will be an end to the sadness

but till then
this is what I do
This is what I can control
and I'm sorry if it hurts you...