Can I Rest In Peace

Can I Rest In Peace

Can I rest in piece with no one but me?
Can I silently kill the pain with no one to see?

Can I be happy once again and not let sadness rule?
Can I ease this stress and just be cool?

My heart is tested but oh so much can happen.
Ill be glad when this pain stops coming.

Some days I feel like I just want to die.
Run razors down my wrist and in my blood slowly die.

Some say they care others say they know.
But when my heart is hurting where do these so called friends go.

I cant find a person whos me or understands where I come from.
They've ended their lives and have no pain at all.

Should I join them a thought creeps into my mind.
This is how you ease your pain for the rest of time.

No physical body no physical pain so ending my life Ill still be the same.

My soul will rest my body will die. My spirit will be here to comfort those who cry.

Another thought comes and says I should stay
I question it with why no one cares show me a soul who does.

Then I think again why should you take your life just because.
I answer and say the pain the hurt and the lies.

A thought comes again and says these are tests you must stay strong.
Even against a thousand you stand-alone.

Dont give up Gods on your side.
With his power each day you sorrow cannot hide.

You may be alone for now but some will follow.
Keep you head held high and good things will come.

This is what runs through my mind it never seems to cease.
When will my without dying Rest In Peace.