Dreams And Thoughts

Dreams and thoughts
Swirl around my head,
How I wish so much,
I was simply dead.

All of the sadness,
Has come back into my life,
I thought it was gone,
And no longer gave me strife.

I suppose I was wrong,
Its been like this for awhile,
Im never going to be happy,
But I guess Im in denial

When anyone asks me,
'are you alright'
I reply with 'yes im fine'
But im trying to end this fight.

Im sick of being taken for granted,
And getting pushed around,
No longer will I take it,
Now Ill stand my ground.

Im sick of getting teased,
For not being thin,
I try my hardest to lose weight,
But I can never win.

Ive tried all the ways,
To be atleast somewhat thin,
But never has it worked,
My food consumed as a sin.

Until one day,
I finally am thin,
Maybe theyll appreciate me,
And the person within.