Self Destruction

Tonight i cut myself to pieces
the wounds never mend
what i will do tomorrow
just seems to depend
on the mood i am in
and the events that take place
clinical insanity
seems to frequently be the case
after weeping oceans
and chasing away endless tears
it's hard to believe in yourself
and disbelieve in your fears
tonight i tear myself to pieces
i want the joy back
the amount of times this has happened
i stopped keeping track
my mind is clouded
i no longer understand
how i wound up in the shadows
with no outstretched hand
no home to go to
no safe place to run
I'm so confused at this point
I've no ides where this all begun
i cry myself to pieces
the tears never stop flowing
why i am this way
I've no way of knowing
and all the while
i standstill waiting for the end
on every fallen tear i wish
to send this back to where it descends
i am just another sitting duck
too scared to repair myself
awaiting the day i receive the power
to erase every bad thing I've felt
i can't put myself back together
or at least on my own
where all the broken pieces fit
i have to be shown
as i cry in the dark
laying sleepless every night
i wish for you to be my guide
back into the light
even though you entered my life
after all the self destruction
i am reluctant to ask
if you'll help me with the reconstruction