Tired of This

I'm tired
of running
tired of hiding
tired of your lies
the emotional ties
tired of feeling that you're on top
so much so that this has to stop!
Tired of crying
tired of sighing
tired of silly little games
the accusations and the calling of names

there has to be more than this
cause once upon a time life was bliss
we believed together in the depth of our kiss
in all I feel it's the fullness of you I miss

then the magic flew through the air and away
remember it was you that threw the love astray
as we come to dark moon, I cast you aside
cut the ties that I've kept close inside
I can't stand it when you use words you have no idea of the meaning
I'm I getting through yet, is there a spark of acknowledgement in your scheming
And here I am now with my heart and soul still screaming

Love danced between you and me
thank spirit that I am now free
from your dreams of wealth above and beyond our need
gone from me now, are you, with your delusions of greed
your words impressed deep into my being
your vision was not for my way of seeing

Sometimes I wonder how am going to allow love in again
so many times I have felt this pain
stargirl you no longer shine
I'm so glad that you are not mine
shallow and crass, projecting yourself in your righteous way
you seem to imagine I still have something to say
would even want to talk with you let alone see you
you were unable to appreciate what I do
I'm not here to live up to your expectations
ha, what a joke, but then you are quite devoid of real emotion

I know that none of this is true
I just allowed myself to believe in you
crazy, messed up little girl, still stinging from the withdrawal
of your father's love, when he walked away, you took a fall
reflected throughout your life in your patterns of hate
one day you'll realise that there's a time to run and a time to wait
but there's no going backwards for me
I always move upward and forward I want to be free
you might think I make mistakes but I'm still learning
takes a while to pick myself up and jump onto the world still turning
you might believe I'm down but my spirit is still burning
never think you can fool me I'm very discerning
there maybe one guarantee nothing will last
it dies and fades and soon become the past
everything is transient, everything has it's time
it's just right now that I'm not feeling so fine
but I know that I see this through
as I eventually get over you
spirit sings me to sleep
I'm tired of what I keep
in my mind
I'm tired
of this
tired.