Baby Boy you had to leave me. I wasn't ready to let you go. You were born at roughly 26 weeks and that's when I for surely knew, I wanted to love you forever and loving you still is all I can do. I held your precious body in my arms till they took you away. Not once were you able to take a breathe for your life was taken away.
I didn't intend to kill you, your daddy did it too. If I wouldn't have gone and seen him that night than he wouldn't have hurt me and you. He though me down that flight of stairs and beat me till I was blue. Once he saw all the blood he knew that I lost you. I didn't want to lose you, I wasn't ready to let you go. I gave you the name of Charlie to hold with you in my memories for life's ago.
You were a precious angel brought to me by God. He had to take you away from me for you were only to teach me a lesson in love. I miss you every single day. I can't remember all I used too. I want to hold you in my arms again and give you little kisses. You will always be my little boy, you would be 11 now. Even my little boys in heaven have to grow up sometimes somehow.
Take care of grammy and grandpa like the way you took care of me. The whole time you were in my tummy was the safest I had ever felt. I miss you Charlie and I love you so much, but this is what life has dealt. I didn't mean to have your daddy take your life from me. I should have never gone to see the man that beat me. But I wanted him to know that he was going to have a son. He didn't like my tone and that is what he had done.
I tried to protect you always, the best that I knew how. But my best was never good enough and memories are all thats left of my beautiful son named Charlie who I had to lay to rest.
God Bless you baby boy. I will never forget you, I will always miss you. I will never stop loving you.
