Why did you have to hurt me?

by Cath   Mar 31, 2006


Why did you have to hurt me after all that we had been through.

Why did I have to let you in when others were telling me that it was the wrong thing to do.

I guess I deserved the hurt and pain for not listening to everyone else.

I thought you would be different and keep your damn hands to yourself.

You never wasted any time raising your hands to me. But soon your hand wasn't good enough and a gun is what I would see.

I hate you for the fear that you placed inside my head. Why didn't you just pull the trigger, by this time I would be dead.

I'm glad I didn't lose my life, this war I plan to win. I plan to beat the abuse away and regain my strength within.

I still look over my shoulder for fear that you will come. Come to get me, come to hurt me, Come to rape me raw. I wish I had never met you, damage is your goal. You take the innocent and treat them bad and hurt is your reward.

I was always to scared to leave you for I feared what you would do. I had no other option but to stay and take all of the abuse. I had no one to count on, to turn to for a helping hand. All I had was you and at that time I wished I was dead.

I'm grateful for my life now because of where I've come. I'm not the same scared little girl, I'm stronger and and adult.

I make my own decisions instead of others doing it for me. For the life I led when I was with you will forever be haunting me. But I'm a bigger, better person for all the hurt you have cause me.

I never did you any harm or hurt you in any way. The one question I would ask you if I saw you around today.

Why did you have to hurt me?

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  • 19 years ago

    by Cath

    Yeah, you think you are a big girl by stating that comment but you know what. I know that you told me you conceived January 17th and told others you conceived on January 27. You than said you had your abortion on March 3rd. Depending on the day. 5 weeks pretty much does it give or take a day or two. Oh, James says he never knew you were pregnant. You are the dumb ass. I don't have to be pathetic. I know I lost my son and was abused. You took all my letters of confiding to you about what I went through and changed it to your name and sent them on their way to someone whom you dont' talk to anymore. Proves right there you are messed up crazy and living my life. Try getting your own. I have a great life. New house, wonderful man who is soon to be my husband by the way. Things couldn't be better expecially with you out of my life. So you see. I don't care what you say on my comments. IT doesn't bother me. I just know that the state receives every thing you write me and other who have given me all of your 100's of emails so I can shove your ass into a padded cell. YOu are a pathetic mental case Paula.
    By the way everyone. I am the author of this poem just commenting on Paulas comment. She is very insane. Thanks for reading my poems. I appreciate it.

  • 19 years ago

    by Paula

    FYI I wasn\'t 5 weeks along, I was a lot further than that, so don\'t go reading my poems and putting s--- up like that, when you don\'t even have your facts straight, you really think you know me. Please. They are my poems and I am sharing a lot when I write them and put them on here, boy am I glad I haven\'t been on here for so long and I know I will no longer be writing my poems on this website.
    You have no right to write something like that so everybody else can see it, when you don\'t even know what you are talking about. You knew I knew it was a boy so what the f--- are you talking about. You didn\'t know me then so just leave me alone would you. Please. I am not reading your poems because there is nothing left between you and me, so don\'t go trashing mine. Now who are you going to go and tell that I wrote this to you. Pathetic. LEAVE ME ALONE!

  • 19 years ago

    by tortured soul

    An amazing poem that took great courage to write.

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