Why so far?

After every major season
My school starts
There has got to be a reason
why I can't sleep at night

I know you're usually a very helpful person
With a lot to offer
But with each passing day, the situation worsens
And I hate that you live so far away

Everything gets me down after the taunting and teasing
No matter what happens, it seems bad
To them its just so pleasing
To see me hurt

I try not to hide my feeling or cry
but when someone else asks
I say I'm fine, another lie
And its like no one understands

I really hate that none of my friends are here
especially Racheal, I thought she was better than this
Its like she doesn't care
About anyone but the other girl

I try my hardest during the day to keep the tears from falling
But its hard to do
And then by the time I get home after all the stalling
It turns to hurt and anger

I wish so badly that you could actually be here with me
instead of across the country
All your friends are so lucky
to have such a good friend

I've been holding back tears
for a very long time
At least 3 years
And now I want them to spill, but they won't

To tell you the truth I want a friend here
To be able to hold me and tell me its OK
I just want 1 friend there when I shed my first tear
Is that too much to ask?

I can't trust anyone around here
Because word travels fast
And the next thing you know, you're surrounded by leers
That just won't go away

I know you can't come
But I swear to God it hurts so much
Hopefully you'll be here someday
To tell me its OK to cry

Every morning I tell myself I'll be OK
Everyday its the same
Gosh I wish someone would stay
and comfort me for once

All I want is a friend to look me in the eyes
And tell me there is nothing wrong with me
not a friend that will tell me lies
And back stab me

So basically I need a friend
I need someone who wouldn't mind giving me a hug
I need someone who will look me in the eyes
I need YOU