I'm Sorry

I fall from happy consciousness,
Into a dark despair,
My thoughts will ever linger here,
As people all around me stare.

They bludgeon me with words of stone,
And bring me to my knees,
As a muffled cry of forgiveness,
Rings out among the trees.

I be not proud of what I've done,
Or the way the deed was done,
But to hold it back would be a crime,
To nobody else, except one.

One who was there when i was in need,
But to which i was plainly blind to see,
That was with here with heart of pure,
The one at wrong was actually me.

I fought with my bitter conscience,
To help my head see clear,
But all along the one i loved,
Was by my side, always near.

My twisted mind spat out a call,
To remove you from my sight,
Yet my heart, eyes and love for you,
Fought back with all their might.

In the end i just gave in,
To the darkness that plagued my mind,
I committed a wrong so bad to myself,
And lost my heart, never to find.

Yet a light remains inside me,
That fixed my heart from two,
And it dawns on me what I've really done,
And that I've gone and done it to you.

No words could possibly explain,
The error that i have made,
I've blown it now, my chance is gone,
And built an invisible barricade.

My love for you still lingers on,
Yet i don't expect yours to stay,
A mistake I've made, by that i stand,
I've lost a great deal today.

I have to let both of us know,
That i will always care,
And even if everything is gone,
My love shall still be there.

This isn't a cry to take me back because i know I've blown all of my chances away and u probably wouldn't even want to take me back anyway, but for what i have done, i am so sorry, no matter how deep dark and cold my heart may be, i am really sorry, and i hope that somehow, you could at least find it inside your self, to forgive me for hurting you.

I'm sorry