Pretend

This smile
This laugh
This heart
Ripped in half

Shh...
No one can see
He doesn't know
What he's done to me

I don't close my eyes
I look straight ahead
No one will see
The tears that I shed

My pretty little mask
It hides my deepest fear
No one sees the reflection
In that shattered mirror

There's something about him
Maybe those beautiful eyes
I can't explain it
So I'll cover it with lies

I'll never let him know
How I truly feel
Bury this deep
And never let it heal

He's happy now
I just can't stand
Seeing them together
Walking hand-in-hand

I missed him before
But...that was in the past
I don't know what happened
But, I'm falling for him fast

Now I'll just pretend
I don't even care
I hope one day he knows
I really want him there

***Sorry it was so long, but I am so upset and...I don't even know. I'm not to fond of this poem...I just wrote it a half an hour ago. I know I shouldn't write when I'm like this...but it helps. Thanks for reading...it means a lot to me.***