The Other Guy

So I lost my mind and got attracted to the wrong type of guy,
Yeah, it's my bad I ain't gona lie.
But before you point a finger, ask yourself why...
"What did I lack that she found in that guy?"

It was an impulsive affair, random to say the least,
With you I was starved of compliments, with him it was a feast.
I know it's not a competition, you would win hands down,
But we left on bad terms when you went out of town.

So he took advantage when I was drunk and off my face,
He went all the way without no doubt or any haste.
I guess I had it coming so why did I cry?
I felt so damn dirty in the moment, I wanted to die.

So I didn't know what to do or who to tell,
It stayed with me all the time as if a bad smell.
I'd shower and bath to get rid of his touch,
It wouldn't leave me, although I tried so much.

Then he told me he was in love with me and again the tables turned,
For it was the feelings and words of love that I had yearned.
I was stupid and foolish that I fell into his spell,
Little did I know at the time I was putting you through hell.

So I tried to make it work, and forget his mistake,
Then my head felt light and in my chest was an ache.
In that instant I felt my heart break,
For it wasn't love I was yearning, it was you - my soul mate.

I sold you out, that I can't deny,
Every time I think of my stupidity I cry and cry and cry.
I let the most important person go and I ask myself why?
How could I let you slip away just because someone else caught my eye?

The moral of the story is... don't be persuaded by temptation,
Because true love takes time and trust takes preparation.
But to break a bond so volatile it only takes a min,
And for an eternity you live with nothing but the burden of your sin.