Fear, anger, sadness,
Words I know so well.
Hate, loneliness, grief,
The void will continue.
Quick Highs,
Crashing lows.
Crazy games,
The roller coaster goes.
No more stability,
Normal life forever gone.
Lies and misconceptions,
Guilt and anger.
How did I become this?
What pushed me to the brink?
Will I ever return?
Can I ever have all I want?
For what I want is not much.
Not money, wealth or fame.
I only want someone to love me,
And for me to love them the same.
I want to crave emotion,
To desire love.
Not just exist.
But live.