Why cant you just see me?
look through those happy eyes,
come and see me,
the real me,
I was happy for awhile,
everything was great,
he stopped calling,
its now every other day,
just once in a while soon,
i push him away,
so he doesn't have to see me,
the horror,
the pain,
everything is going insanely wrong,
but not just today,
everyday,
the boy i call my brother,
hit someone new,
she flew down stairs,
i couldn't help her,
because i got scared,
i covered my eyes and cried,
prayed for it to go away,
it did for now,
the wind use to hit my toes,
it not blows my head,
the wind of horror,
my thoughts,
memories are crazy going wrong,
always have,
some are new,
I'll plan my death,
to see what will happen,
if i was no longer here,
who have i become?
someone who i use to be?
that suicidal child?
the one who hides her tears?
wont tell friends whats wrong?
to scared to tell them?
to afraid of who they will see?
hello?
I'm your mind Laura,
giving you someone to talk to,
or use that razor.
say with a twist,
carve it on your wrist,
is that who you want to be Hun?
NO!!,
i cry,
leave me alone,
as the tears drip down,
i need help,
i need to feel loved,
not pushed away,
feel like he doesn't want you,
open with someone who will be there,
please tell me you care,
just to tell you,
i will always be here for you,
even if I'm alive,
or.........................................................................................dead.
