Its Never Enough

The thunder roars,
The lightening flashes,
My tears weep,
From my mascara lashes

Sitting on the cold pavement,
Rocking back and forth,
I think of what I should do,
I think of what Im worth.

Nothing says my mind,
Your not wanted, not at all
I love you say my friends,
Violent tears start to fall

Screams and shouts
WHY CANT YOU LOVE ME
AM I NOT GOOD ENOUGH
WHAT IS IT? I DONT SEE!

The wind starts to blow,
The trees start to sway,
I know im not good enough,
ill get out of your way

Get out of your life,
And get out of mine,
For a long time have I planned this,
Ive reached the end of the line

I go inside,
And raid the cabinets,
I find what im looking for,
My sweet savored tablets

I take them all,
One by one,
twenty lovely tablets,
and my life will be done

Just in case it wont work,
I grab my knife,
I slam the door,
Vanishing out of sight

I look at my wrist,
Graffitied with slits
Tears fall from blue eyes,
For this life im not fit

I push the blade in,
Into my pale white skin,
I dig it deeper,
So piercingly it stings

I drag the knife along,
Up and back down,
While doing all this,
I dont dare make a sound

I want them to realize
when they awake,
My happiness was a lie
My life was a fake

I turn my music on,
And put out my light,
Now youll be happy
Im out of your sight.