Glistening Eyes

My outlook on life is blurry;
I'm slowly spinning out of control,
I don't know how to handle this,
to end my pain is the true goal;

Now I'm trapped, all on my own,
and I cry every single night I'm alive,
I'm just trying to keep it together,
always so desperate to survive.

My tears are converted into smiles,
and my pain into endless laughter,
I'm filled with shame, my chest's heaving,
but now that doesn't matter,

Sure I have a few little problems,
but I'm no different from the rest,
Except making it through this challenge,
is the ultimate and final life test.

I want you here right now,
to help me focus on all that's true,
And save myself from everyone else,
I'm in a nightmare, I need you.

The true path is so confusing,
I need to hold on, I guess,
And make it through this maze,
and clear this never-ending mess;

Of a life I live everyday,
one that's imploded way too long,
I've just got to keep shaking it off,
and keep living this life gone wrong.