That's Me

Drowning in desperation,
That's me, fearful and alone,
Wondering about my nightmares,
My masked fears are unknown.

Drifting from the crowd,
That's me struggling to survive,
Hiding from the prying eyes,
I've got too many secrets to deny.

Slowly falling, fading away,
That's me with teary eyes at night,
There's no one to answer my call,
As I'm breathless, out of sight.

Starving for control,
That's me, never good enough,
Leaning over the toilet bowl,
At this moment, I'm not that tough.

Cutting to save my soul,
That's me disguising the pain,
Physically hurts less than emotionally,
That will always be the same.

Smiling, leaving others in the dark,
That's me getting judged so fast,
Questioning why they're not noticing,
And how much longer this will last.

Calling out for help,
That's me, being so discreet,
Wondering if anyone can hear me,
Or if this is my final defeat.