Under Control

Here I am screaming, out so very loud,
I'm trying to keep up with the crowd,
But my soul is slipping while I'm failing,
I'm slowly but surely bailing out.

I need to get away where the past is lost,
My heart is fading, my life is tossed,
I can't stop this never ending mess,
So, I've got to just shake it off, I guess.

I've got the chance now, I should run away,
To where I'm free and the skies aren't grey,
And I can finally see this invisible rainbow,
As my mask fades, and the real me shows.

I can come out of my secret hiding place,
Without questions to answer, no people to face,
So I won't explain myself and start all over,
From the start where I need to duck and cover.

My faith is slipping up again, just like before,
There's nothing to keep me alive anymore,
Not that I'm asking to die at this point in time,
It just seems, lately, that no one notices I'm not fine.