Big sister..big sister

Big sister big sister
why do you cry?
big sister big sister
why did Mom die?

i used to ask you these questions
with tears in my eyes
you didn't know any of those answers
you covered your innocence with lies

I'm blinded by the harsh light
of day for all i wish for is night
You slowly walk away from me
and i know things wont be alright

Big sister why did you walk away?
I'm alone and i know i am lost
i know you want your own life
no matter the cost

Big sister big sister
did you know i want to die?
big sister big sister
you always covered your pain with a lie

You cry when you think i cant hear
but I'm always at your door
you hide the pain in your eyes
i don't know if i can take this anymore

I want to save you big sister
and take away the pain you feel
but when you think I'm not looking
you cut your wrists with a knife of steel

How do i save you?
please tell me at least one way!
for i know if i don't save you
i will not have you one day

I was lost in the darkness
unable or maybe unwilling to see
my lost big sister
who is in dyer need of me

Don't worry big sister
somehow i will get us both through
I'm willing to be the hero
but only if you want me to

big sister big sister......

**written for my older sister...who is known for being the Hero ..**