Living A Lie

I feel the hush of the dark
Surrounding me like light
It's not the same,
As the rush of the night.

My mind is stolen,
Off in a land of dreams
My ears are burning
Ignoring the shrill screams.

My heart is broken and painfully scarred,
As i pull my knife from the hidden drawer
I take a breath and look at my wrists,
the shiny clean knife will soon be no more.

There is a sigh of relief
As is see the pain leaving my veins
Tonight is just like every other,
Being used to the pain.

I find laughter in my scars
And smiles in my knife,
There's love in my tears
Welcome to my life.

I live in silent screams
That tear at my heart
I wish i could fast forward
Through all the painful parts.

Their smiles laugh and tease me
As i walk down the hall
No one will ever see
The real me that lives behind this wall.

No one sees the tears i cy
In my lonely room at night,
I sit and cry, longing for the day,
That my life will be filled with light.