Pain Redefined

Look deep into,
These dark brown eyes.
Stare into them,
Until it eats you up inside.

Listen to my cries,
My cries of death,
Hear the voices screaming,
Echoing from my chest.

Sense the pain,
I hold deep inside.
Know that I hate this world,
And that I want to die.

Smell the odor,
Of the hate in my heart.
Know the aroma,
I keep hidden in the dark.

Feel the weakness,
I hold deep within.
Touch the tears that run down my face,
When someone criticizes me being with him.

The pain is coming back,
Back into my soul.
My tempers running hot,
My blood is running cold.

Too much hate,
Is bottled up inside.
But, its coming to the point,
Where I just cant hide.

I cant hide the blood,
I cant hide the tears,
I cant take the heartbreak,
From all of these years.

He said it was all a game,
Well the game has gone too far,
Because now, I have,
No promise of tomorrow.

I hold my life,
In the palm of my hands,
You don't think I would do it.
Well, wait, I'll show you I can.

Your beauty brings me,
Only pain and sorrow.
I'm hurt by the love,
In it, I see and feel the pain of tomorrow.

Pain doesn't hurt,
When its all you've ever felt.
Maybe you didn't know this,
But when you look me in the eyes, I melt.

I wish that letting go, was only so easy.
From walking on the beach, letting go of life's hand.
Or just to lay down,
And disintegrate into the sand.