Long ago
There was a girl
Who I care for
Someone I loved
A great friend
With the option of being closer
A chance for more than friendship
A chance I did not seize
A risk I now regret not taking
Its been 6 cycles of the sun now
Still I sit here shaking angrily
Kicking my self
Beating myself for the chance I missed
For the opening I did not take
Chances not grabbed hold of
Many signs I got from her
Symbols of her love
Her care for me
Things she would say
Faces she would make
The way she touched me
The way she spoke
Her voice was always soft
Always kind and compassionate
Never harsh, always sweet
She liked me
I liked her
We were perfect
Yet I did not act upon it
I did nothing
To this day I regret it
She was perfect for me
I was perfect for her
We could have been together
Could have gotten married
Had kids
Spent all of eternity together
But yet I did nothing
I missed it all
I did not act upon what I had
I was afraid of her
Terrified of commitment
Fearing getting closer
More than friends
But I was 14
She was 13
I did not understand at the time
The great gift I had
The one in a life time chance
Im much older now
We both moved apart
Went our separate ways
I lost contact with her years ago
But still it hurts
The thought of what could have been
We could have been together
She was the one
The ideal one
But I did not act
Angry am I still
For not following
The perfect one
