No one understands

Don't tell me what to do,
I am not a child.
I have my own thoughts and emotions,
I always feel so very tired.

I cant remember how to smile,
Feel trapped in this world so deep.
My emotions are not mine anymore
Thoughts and feelings I must keep.

Where in my life did I go so wrong?
Do I deserve so much pain?
Why can't everyone leave me alone?
Slowly making me go insane.

I don't tell others who they have to be.
Never tell them what to do.
So why does every one pick on me?
They make me feel so blue.

Let me love whoever I want to,
It has nothing to do with you.
You say these people are nobodies,
Thats what you think is true.

If you can't be nice to me,
To another world I will escape.
Put on my mask and get on the stage,
Onto a different life I make.

A life where nothing around is real,
All only tools to get me through.
From sunrise to another sunset,
For the days I feel so blue.