My Thoughts

I lay there all alone every night

I cry myself to sleep just thinking of you

I just wanted you to feel the same as I felt for you

I cut myself to deal with all my emotions

I watch as blood runs down my arm

I bottle up how I feel about you when you come around me

I make a nightmare out of my sleep and stay there during the night

In my dreams I watch as the petals fall from the rose that you had given me

I watch as I fall from the bridge that separates good and bad

When your not here I watch myself suffer from all the thoughts I have of you

My thoughts and suffering are what helps me

All the suffering I feel is to much for me to handle alone

I cry and wish for you to come back to help me

Losing all feeling I once had makes me feel more hurt

Isolation and asphyxiation go through my mind all the time

I write this in form of a letter of how I felt about you

Now its just to late to save me