Without You

And so I find myself here alone again.

Doing what I always do
What always happens when I think of you
I sit so tensely on this bed
Eyes are fixed at the pouring red
I use these blades to try and drain
Away the memories of love and pain
I wish you were here; cutting you instead
Bleeding and crying until you are dead
But you just can\'t hear how loud I scream
All I want is just to dream
To have you back, loving me
James, I wish that you could see
How much it hurts, how much I\\\\\\\'ve bled
Without you I\\\\\\\'m lost, I\\\\\\\'m nothing, I\\\\\\\'m dead
I try so hard to block you out
I try to stop thinking all about
You and me, our life before
But now I\\\\\\\'m nobody; just everyone\\\\\\\'s w h o r e.

(c) by Bella Schilling
6th May 2006