I Hate The Mirror (And The Mirror Hates Me)

Looking at this photo in black and white
"You look so beautiful" - what a load of s h i t e
Because as you look into those dark, brown eyes
There's nothing there - just hurt and lies

But I can smile for you, and I'll smile again
Though you are much too blind to see the pain
Do you think it is easy putting on this mask
To cover up all of the emotional scars?

I wear this mask every single day
I wish more than anything there was some other way
But I just can't seem to get out of this state
Of self-loathing and harming and all this hate

I hate myself and this f u c k i n g mirror
And all my bloody blades and scissors
I hope soon one day I can just erase
This hideous and ugly and cursed little face.

(c) by Bella Schilling
11th May 2006